Then and Now

I don't know if any of my Touro friends have noticed that I have a couple of followers who are not members of our esteemed Master's classes. These two ladies in question are dear, dear friends from college. They are both so precious to me, I couldn't possibly put it into words.

What I can tell you is that in the photo on the top we are all 20ish years old. The girl in the middle, DeDe, is now in Iraq (well, on her way home for some R and R) and married to this really cool guy named Ray who is a career military person. They live near D.C. If you ever have a chance to meet DeDe, you will be immediately struck by how friendly and open she is - a truly loving soul.

The girl on the left is Krissy, a Montessori school teacher and mother of Tommy Lee. She too is married to one of the kindest, friendliest men on the planet, Tony. They live in Sacramento. You'll never meet a more loving human being. Krissy is the definition of "friend." I know she'll always care for me, no matter what. How rare is unconditional love in this day and age?

The picture on the bottom was taken a couple of years ago, we hadn't seen each other in a while and had a gathering at Krissy's new house to catch up and celebrate the holidays. Instinctively, we lined up for this photo just as we had 15 years earlier when we were roommates in college.

What a treasure it is to have lifelong friends!

Mrs. Sessler

Today, Mrs. Sessler came and spoke to my 8th grade students. Mrs. Sessler is a remarkable woman in many ways, but in particular she comes to speak to the kids about her experience as a Holocaust survivor. She has done this, at my request, the last 8 years running. I feel like I know her story so well I could almost write a book about her. Well, today she asked me if I'd help her write a book, her book, her story. I don't think I've ever felt more honored. Here is a woman that I love so much I act like a giddy groupie when she is around and she wants my help. Needless to say, I told her I'd be honored. The mere thought of it has my insides swirling like goo.

Isn't it funny how the world works? To make a long story incredibly short, 107,000 Dutch Jews were taken into custody by the Nazis. 5,000 of those individuals survived. She is one of them. How amazing is that? How amazing is it that her grand-daughter, Julia Benner, came through the middle school and mentioned to Edward Coyne who mentioned to me she was a survivor and might be willing to talk to my kids? How amazing is it that she wants me to help her tell a story so profound? After all, she gives voice to almost 6 million people who cannot tell their tale. At 81 years old, I think she understands how important it is to get it recorded for perpetuity.

I think I might be the luckiest girl alive!

Bangs

Jillian got "straight across" bangs on Wednesday. I had to make her sit on her hands for 10 minutes because she would not stop futzing with them. On the car ride back from the salon, she kept looking in the side mirror and saying things like, "I am so cute!" She has terrible self-esteem problems - can't you tell! She stares at herself in the mirror at every possible opportunity. Was I once a vain teenage girl myself? No, it's simply not possible.



She'll be 13 in two weeks. How did time pass so quickly? I remember her strutting around in a diaper and my high heels. Now, we fight over whether or not she can wear eyeliner and how much make up is too much make up. I'm so grateful she still works hard to keep good grades and is respectful and kind to her teachers and friends. I hope that doesn't change. I hope she gets in to Cal like she talks about. I hope I can afford it.



When she was young, I dreamt about her potential. Now that she is teen aged, I am saying daily prayers that she won't waste it. I wonder what the next phase is?



In case you don't know her, or like Wendy, haven't seen her in a while, I've posted a recent photo of her all dressed up at my sister's wedding.

My eyes burn from reading short stories all day. I've got some kind of sinus thing going that has resulted in a three day long headache that won't go away and all I want to do is get to class tonight to see everybody. I really enjoy seeing you all each Thursday and will miss everyone next week when we have the time off. So, in the spirit of the season, I decided to post why I am thankful for each of you...

Heidi - You keep me laughing. I love your razor sharp wit and wish I had the intellect that is required to be as funny as you. You are a great source of support too. What would I do without you.

Alex - Whenever I'm wracked with worry I think of you. Not because you worry me, but because you are a model of peace and calmness. You have an amazing way of keeping things in perspective - something I deeply admire.

Brad - So quiet and unassuming. You exude confidence. I love the well placed humor you infuse into our class. Thank you.

Wendy - You are always so bright and positive. I look forward to seeing your genuinely warm smile. Plus, you love my kid and remember her after two years. That's incredible.

Joe - It's always nice to know that there is another English teacher slogging away out there. I enjoy hearing your perspectives on teaching and learning. I need to poke my head out of my middle school cave once in a while.

Carleen - You have a natural and easy kindness that I think people are really drawn to. Combined that with the logical math teacher side of you, and you are that rare person who sees things as a whole. We are lucky to have you working for our union. You get the big picture.

Roger - Gourmet snacks and endless scientific wisdom! Now there is a combination that can't be beat. You are always willing to listen to me and I appreciate that. I know I can be a whiny baby sometimes. Thank you.

Sarah - I feel like if we were soldiers you would be the exact girl I'd want in the trenches with me. You are infinitely trustworthy and honorable. I'm glad we're friends.

Mellissa - You are the spice in my life. You are the rock star I want to be. You are bold and fun and make me realize what it means to really live one's life. And, I can't forget to thank you for Aidan. She's a one in a million kid.

Andy - I can't think of another man I know who is more nurturing and thoughtful and intelligent. The kids at Semple are so lucky to have a teacher like you to look up to. We have some great laughs too.

Karen - A woman with the rare combination of intellect and artistic heart. It is so reassuring to know you're in this class with me. I hope I don't drive you nuts with questions and queries. You just know so much. Thank you for putting up with me!

Hale - You seem to be good at everything you do. You are honest and candid - two great qualities in any human being. Like Andy, you too are the perfect role model for your students. I hope they have some small understanding of that. Hopefully they say thanks once in a while.

Steve - I can't express enough how much I appreciate your flexibility and patience with me. This process of coming back into the world of being a student hasn't been easy for me. Thank you. Some day, when I grow up, I want to be as easy going and well versed in all things technological -like you!

Have a great Thanksgiving holiday everyone. Your friendships will be among the many things I am thankful for this year.

Hallelujah!

I feel as if the sun is smiling upon my face. I have, after much struggle, nailed down a project idea. I have direction. I have focus. I am a "master" of the universe (He!He!). If you happen to read this and are willing to help me out, send any websites or web applications that you know about that students can use to help learn, study, develop vocabulary. My special emphasis is on Greek and Latin roots.

Is it possible to age ten years in a week?

I feel like I have aged in this last week. APA has, quite possibly, taken years off my life. It was interesting to note on the wiki that just about all of us had the urge to quit this week. All I can say is that I'm so grateful to have you all on this journey with me. Thank you for all your help and support. Like they say in High School Musical, "We're All In This Together..."

This One's For you Kathy

Well, I chose an alternative evaluation this year rather than the traditional classroom observation. I wanted to try and work smarter, not harder. In other words, I wanted to combine the work I am doing for this master's program with anything else I could. I deperately long for purpose and meaning in my life! So, I committed to creating a class wiki and getting as many of my handouts and regularly used forms into PDF format and onto the wiki. Tonight I took my first steps. I tried a couple web 2.0 applications for converting files; one was www.scribd.com and the other was a free download from cnet called primopdf. Both worked. I have a chart for the literary unit we are currently wrapping up on the wiki in an adobe acrobat file and I also converted a document for a piece of literature we won't do until the spring. I had already converted the form we use for our weekly spelling/vocabulary words into an excel file, and that too is on the wiki. So, if you care or if you want to see my wiki in its infancy, then visit www.fieldsenglish8.pbwiki.com. Enjoy!

New Love

Sport

• Well, I've got little to nothing done this week because... I've fallen in love.

• My boyfriend got us a new dog and I am enraptured! To fully understand the situation, you have to know that we just lost our other dog, Malibu, at the beginning of summer and I didn't think I was ready for a new pet.

• He had his eye on this new dog for months - even before Malibu got sick. Scott would visit him and bring him up in conversation with me and I'd always say, "I don't want another Pit Bull. People act so weird around Malibu." It was hard to take her places. She didn't really care to be on a leash and certainly didn't need one, but the way people reacted to her, we often felt compelled to leash her up.

• Needless to say, last week, he gently mentioned the grey Pit Bull puppy his friend had AGAIN. My response was, "Do whatever you want." All other boyfriends in the universe would understand this to mean, "Do what I want," but Scott interpreted it literally.

• Now I'm useless. All I want to do is pet him and be near him -- the puppy not Scott. We named him Super Sport, Sport for short. (He! He! That rhymes) Scott has a thing about naming his animals after Chevy model muscle cars.

• At 34 years old, I'm overcome like a little giddy school girl, with feelings of love. I guess, in this one instance, Scott was right. I was ready.
  

Robin Beckers

This is my friend, Robin Beckers. She and I taught eighth grade English together for 9 years at BMS. She retired at the end of the 2008 school year. We joked around about her finally getting "paroled", but the truth of the matter is, I miss her so bad I feel like I've been given a life sentence. My new partner is awesome. Don't get me wrong. It's a loss all the same.

I was missing her so bad, my daughter and I stopped by her house today on the off chance we might get to see her and talk to her. I especially wanted to make sure she knew of our beloved campus supervisor, Irene Porter's, passing. She wasn't home. I found myself crying as Jill and I got back in the car. I hadn't realized how much I wanted to see her. Robin herself, is a very no nonsense, hot tempered, red headed Irish girl. She'd read this and tell me, "Get over your bad self!" No joke; she still uses that phrase from the 70's. Really, it's part of her charm.

I'm more determined than ever to get in a visit with her as soon as possible.

P.S. Some of you might spot another "cool kid" we miss in the background, behind the wine glass.

Yard Dookie

I had a student a couple years back, you may know him, Isaiah Boyd, who knew I loathed yard duty so much he renamed it for me -- yard dookie. This school year, I have yard dookie on Tuesdays. My yard dookie station is at the top of the P-wing stairs. For those of you who know the Benicia Middle School campus, you know that the location I speak of is quite breathtaking. Before I parked my barely caffinated behind at the top of the steps I'd been in a bit of a foul mood - mostly because of this class. I feel like I'm light years behind. This does not sit well with me. I'm used to doing well. Mrs. Page's husband pointed out I'm suffering from a severe case of cognitive dissonance. Anyway, I took one look out at the strait and Port Costa on the opposite shore and felt better. It was a gorgeous morning. I reminded myself that I enjoy more love and support than one person probably deserves. In short, I gave myself an attitude adjustment.

By the way, Heidi had to bring me back from the brink once again later that day, but you'd have never known that if I hadn't tattled on myself.

P.S. The photo I've posted is actually a view of Benicia from Port Costa - the exact opposite of what I see.

September 18, 2008

Trying something new. Where will I go with this? Who cares?